I am sensitive. Real sensitive. So… I have found out that caffeine heightens this sensitivity. Though, not in a good way. One cup of coffee causes my whole body to be in pain. I feel this agony in my chest, my abdomen, my lower back, and even my calves. Even my scoliosis begins to hurt, despite sitting upright and in relatively good posture.
My mind is continually running like a machine… on my good days, that is. When I’m not dealing with waves of depression, I am writing. If I drink coffee, or even tea, I cannot even feel my music that I usually do feel for its emotions, while I write. Writing becomes more of an effort, with caffeine in my system.
I am quitting this drug. For good.